through the ocean of doubt


Pull the curtain back on any one painting and you are sure to witness the sea of doubt pounding against the shores of my creativity.  Doubt and fear that were sometimes cautiously, sometimes brazenly waded, swam and forged through.  

So many thoughts tumble about my mind throughout the course of a painting that I find it necessary to subdue them with sound. Be it music, a book on tape, a fine british crime drama or science radio. . . all fit the bill of overcoming the odds stacking against my will when I pick up the brush.  

Occasionally, however, I welcome the doubt, for it pushes arrogance aside, and realigns my nature to remain forever a student, to learn from each piece, not simply be satisfied with the comfortable. 

It seems rather vital to move through the fear rather than wish it away. Like any difficult trial in life, without it we would be spineless, with it we are more than conquerors.

**Painting Target, by me. Prints available here


silver linings, etc.

Gilmore - See Through Some weeks are just hard. This was one of them. My husband lost his job very suddenly to downsizing on Tuesday which threw our family into a tailspin. The most confusing part of it all is the up and down, back and forth of it all:

We were greatly relieved. . .he really had been languishing for quite a while.
We were terrified. . .we have a young family to support.
We were optimistic. . . time for reinventing ourselves, redefining our family purpose, etc.
We were discouraged/aimless. . . it’s totally overwhelming not knowing where to even start.
We were fortified. . . confident and sure this was exactly what my husband needed to pursue his passions(writing).

The truth is, we simply cannot count on security in the things of this world. The only thing I know to be true and trustworthy is my Lord. The anchor of my soul who walks with us through this challenging time, who leads our steps and can care for our family better than any high paying job.

So each day we consciously turn our thoughts and hearts to gratefulness for such amazing supportive friends and family that have rallied to our sides, the many blessings we do have, joy in the beauty all around us, hope in the One who carries all our sorrows and worries, and peace in knowing we will weather this. Every time we do this, fear is diminished and courage rises.

Here’s to another day!

**painting by me, “See Through”

on the problem child


——-Child, in this case, refers not to the small human beings I’ve been charged with, but rather instead to paintings with issues. Do not use tactics recommended below for said “problem children” on real live people or you may have mixed/volatile/incarcerating results.—–

With the increase of production in my studio efforts I have noticed an equal increase in problem children. I am learning that just because you make more work, doesn’t mean everything runs smoother. It is so much more about finding a rhythm and how you move past the bumps in your path. I have been practicing a few methods to keep going during these frustrating impasses. They are not set in stone and vary depending on size and/or the nature of the problem I’m facing. I will list them in no particular order and some days I employ them all:

**Throw it away. . .(I don’t love this, but some pieces are unredeemable and not for viewing.)

**Paint over it. . . (My favorite! I love to take panels I have wrestled over for months/years and simply repaint right over the top of them. It’s a little addictive and should be done with confidence. It also saves money and time prepping new panels. With space at a premium in our home, this is the only way I can keep making work without taking over the entire house. It also ensures me that I don’t have to keep work that I’m not crazy about. When I surround myself with a body of work that I’m not proud of I sink into despair and loose my focus.)

**Turn it upside down. . .(This only works for me when I’m struggling over the composition of a painting. . .but you can also look at it in a mirror or take a photo of it to change it into two dimensions. . .all of it is supposed to encourage a new perspective.)

**Put it away. . . .( I do this an awful lot as well. Especially when a piece is becoming frustrating and I can’t solve it.  It helps me cut the umbilical cord. . .separate from the work for a while to regain fresh eyes, it gives my mind a break from a circular thought pattern and opens me up to new possibilities. . .then I can ask more objective questions like, “Is it communicating what I intended?” or “Do I like it?”)

**Ask a trusted friend (or kid). . .(My kids offer opinions constantly, surprisingly they hit the nail on the head when it comes to problems. . .I just need to step back enough to hear them. I highly recommend a trusted critique group. I encouraged caution with receiving advice. Remember to stick with your gut.  Too many times I have without conviction brazenly changed something in a painting to please someone else and been horrified with the results. Your initial instincts can be trusted, so give advice time to season(if it’s not helpful) or sink in(if it rings true))

**Put in in a different room. . .(This is similar to putting it away except in that you can “live with it” for a while and see what working. I currently have a piece I’m doing this with and I found the other day as I glanced up at it that I really love this one section, it was all the stuff around it that was driving me mad. After I eliminated the crazy-making areas I saw it in a whole new light.)

**Sleep on it. . . (Sometimes I wake up and find the problem was in my imagination, hanging out with all sorts of riffraff. Sleep scrubs the brain.)

**Work on something else. . ( Love this as well. . . maybe I avoid problems like the plague, but there’s always something to work on whether it’s other pieces or more domestic projects. . . a little distraction does wonders.)

Retain a bigger perspective:  The real thing to remember in all of this is that yes, you’ve poured your heart, soul, energy and time into this or that work, but if it doesn’t work out. . .it isn’t a reflection on your character or even your skill.  The experience you’ve gained, the things you’ve gleaned along the way. . .that’s the gold at the end of the rainbow!  It’s all in the journey.  

One last morsel of advice I remind myself of often is to keep growing. Being one-dimensional is boring and produces boring work. Don’t just live for the artwork. Love someone, read some fiction, learn about something new, laugh, open your eyes to the big wide world around you. This is what life is about. . . discovery, joy, finding hope, struggling through, paying attention.  You cannot produce meaningful anything when you spend your every breath on one thing. I highly recommend a good reading of the Psalms for healthy dose of realignment to that which truly matters, eternally speaking.. . this is something I do need every day.

**Painting is Night Flight (a problem child that survived, amazingly!), by Shawna Gilmore 


What’s Shakin’?

Image My Etsy** store is up and running!  Come take a look at what’s for sale! (click Here)

We’ve got chairs(like those above), birds, clouds, critters and prints of original paintings. (I’m super excited about the prints! They turned out so well, I can’t even tell the difference between them and the originals.)

I opened My Etsy** Store to provide quality, original art at affordable prices for everyone. I know purchasing artwork is an investment and in belt-sinching times like these it can even be a sacrifice. So I’ve tried to offer a variety of price points ranging from $18-110.

I will be adding to the collection on a regular basis, so I do hope you’ll stop in and check them out!

I’m deeply appreciative for your support and patronage over the years. Thank you!

**Not sure what Etsy is? That’s ok, not everyone knows :) It is a web-based marketplace where people around the world connect to buy and sell unique goods. Etsy allows me to offer my artwork to be purchased using a variety of payment methods, including Paypal and credit cards.  But mostly, I just love the community! It is such a richly, inspiring place. . . many self-taught artisans as well as professionals.  I love it! 

News for you!

**Apologies if you’ve already read this via my Facebook page (be sure to “Like” my Facebook page btw to receive all sorts of happenings and other things you’d rather not know)

Soon I will be relaunching my Etsy site(for those who aren’t familiar with Etsy it is an online storefront for selling my work ) with a bunch of new work. . ..stay tuned! Very exciting!

Before that relaunch I am currently taking your orders for Giclee fine art prints of any of my current work pictured here:

Prices will range from $15-40 and can be printed in a variety sizes depending on the shape of the original painting. Message me [shawnaanngilmore (at) gmail (dot) com] and we can discuss options for sizes, prices, shipping/pickup, the weather, your fear of toenails or anything else you need to ponder.